Assalamualaikum.
It's been too long since the last time I updated my blog. Sometimes I forgot that I have a blog haha. I created this blog seven years ago. I was very childish at that time (just refer to my old posts haha) but not that I am very mature right now. I think I am still childish and immature.
Honestly, I feel embarrassed when I read my old posts hahahaha and I thought to delete them. But, I think biarlah itu jadi kenangan for me to read in future haha
Okay. I have learned and through a lot after seven years. My journey was a simple journey like most of people's journey. After SPM, then I took STPM and entered university in 2016. In university, I regretted the most in my first and second year because I was not able to do a lot of things that I want to do. I was being a normal student, I went to classes, I skipped some of my classes, I made few friends but still not interested to know more people, I spent most of my time in my room, doing nothing, probably sleeping or watching movies. I did not attend many programs because I was lazy. I preferred going back home every weekend. I did not study very well. I got low marks on my midterm. I am not interested to pick-a-crush like most my friends did haha. There was none of my lecturers that know me. There were lot of people doesn't know me. I always thinking like "whats the point of studying? what do I want to achieve here?" To be honest, there was a time I thought I chose a wrong course. I have a little bit interest of business but there was something that I fucking love. It is Arts. If I could change my course, I would definitely change it. But it has many processes and I need to think of my future as well. I didn't mean arts has no future but my family is more into businesses. I was fascinated listening to violins, guitar, singing and watching them perform their theater. There was a time I was crying listening their singing while waiting for the bus (since their faculty is near to the bus stop) and thinking how I wish to be part of them.. However, I know Allah has the best plan for me.
During my final year, I have changed a lot of things in myself. I was more open to everyone. I want to spend my last year very well so I have no regrets in future. I studied hard, I have a lot of friends, I attended a lot of programs, I spent my weekend with my friends and we also traveled, I met my lecturers in their office room, and finally I already have one crush. A very handsome chinese boy. Hahahahaha
And one of the biggest thing that happened during my last year, which is something that I am very proud of. I performed for Tamu Gadang! (I will share about this later. but idk when hehe) I also performed at college and at Festival Awards for Arts students (this also I will share later. I was very emotional at that time. I performed for Arts students at Arts Faculty!)
I went to the places that I have been before in my university. I go to makan-makan with my friends, go to kbox after class, watching movies, and banyak lagi. And I also prefer more to eat at cafe because before this,I only tapau my food and eat in my room. I really make lot of friends. Also lots people know me too hehehhehe
Besides, during these time, the most important thing that I learnt is to love yourself. By loving yourself, you should know your capabilities. You are more than you know. You should do something that you love. You know who you are and other people don't. I made a big decision for myself. Something that makes people hate me. but I don't blame those people because for me judging is everyone's rights. you may judge me because I also judged people. We all are. But the important thing is, in order to love yourself, you need to learn more about yourself. By loving yourself, you also will improved yourself. (too many yourself bruh)
That's all. I will try to write more after this.
I have another two weeks before my graduation. what should I do? what should I prepare? ohno.
